My Mad Season
Those few readers that remember that way back when I used to have a section “Lyrics of the Week.” For now I am going to include them in my blog.
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[cpg_image:41,6,t] Last Thursday night I actually went to a party…and even better, a Sunset Rec party. I got pretty drunk and I had a great time. It 
Sunset is going through a tough transition right now. We lost 4 of the original building supervisors from when I started: Cesar, Jason, Johanna, and now Irving. And that was after it lost 3 or 4 other supervisors right before I jumped on board. The clerks lost Ting-Ting, and even some of the lifeguards are leaving. The good news is that Edgar came back. He and I sit around and bitch about all of the patrons, and about other shit. He’s an entertaining guy. Going to work there always makes me feel better, even if just temporarily. I hope we can all gel together like the last group did, but I don’t know. Anyway, this is how we “roll” at Sunset. Edgar can verify this:  Next week I will be starting my position as a software analyst. It looks like I will be working two five-hour shifts per week unless I can figure out another way to do it. Classes are boring, but I am not complaining. I told one of my roommates, Julian that I plan on drinking a lot more this quarter. I need to have a good time. I will also resume my position as a Stats grader this coming week. ——- In retrospect, this past week a lot of cool things happened, but it was rough on me for some reason. I just feel like such a little kid. I am 22 years old, and I should know how to play with the cards that I am dealt, but there are still so many things I have yet to learn, many of which my peers seem to have already learned. Like I mentioned in an entry from May, my brain doesn’t shut up. I am a chronic thinker to the point that it is almost self-destructive. This feeling just caught up with me is all. I guess that is the reason I have been writing so much lately. It is my outlet. Living with 5 other guys, it is my only outlet. I am experiencing my own “Mad Season.” ——- So I got the Stats project that I requested for that consulting class so I am happy. I spent the rest of my time trying to learn Java the hard way. I tried reading a book and got bored, so now I am just playing around with NetBeans. I am stuck at home for the weekend, not really by choice. But it doesn’t matter where I am, I will be bored since nothing is going on. I am hoping to put up the pics from Irving’s party this weekend, …including the video of Michael giving Irving a lapdance… |
This has to be my #2 song. It has so much meaning to me, I feel like I could have written it. Apparently the entire album is about a relationship that has ended, but to me, it has a completely different meaning. The first person is this melancholic character that at times plagues me. Sometimes the “you,” “we” in this song is some arbitrary person, and sometimes it refers to my usual self. And the happy music is the perfect contradiction to the lyrics. If you connect with music, you know what I mean.
I feel stupid, You don’t know me now. I feel stupid, We don’t talk about, So why you got to stand there looking like the answer now? I need you now, I feel stupid, You’ve grown colder now, So are you going to stand there? I need you now, And now I’m crying, And I come undone, I need you now. Well, I need you now I come, ohhhh, I come undone, |